Wen l-lui

2009-06-02T12:04:00.005+08:00

Today is the 2nd of june..

Just dunno... feel like typing something...

Does a person who appears happy to u be really happy in his/her heart?
Does a person who appears sad to u be really sad in his/her heart?

Does a person who appears to be strong to u be really strong in the heart and mind?
Does a person who appears to be weak to u be really weak in the heart and mind?

Does a person who appears to be carefree be really troubled-free?
Does a person who appears to be in troubled be really tt troubled?

When i keep quiet, do you think i am unfriendly, dao? or just troubled? or in deep thoughts?
When i talk alot, do u think i am active? am really happy? or trying to hide myself?

Are u scare of being in the centre of attention? or,
Are u scare of being left alone, not being notice by anyone?

Are you troubled by money?
Are you troubled by love?

It's hard to understand how a person truely feels and thinks. Most pp wont show what they truely thinks to others easily. Some will just show it in their face easily.

The World of Nothing

LEI LE

2009-02-27T23:02:00.004+08:00

Halo...

Finally i am here to overwrite the algae blog... Suddenly got feeling wan to blog... heh*
Really its been very long... think most of those who came to see my blog before ASSumed this blog is History...

Actually blogging is gd, as it allows you to freely type and utilise your own "POWDERFUL English". AAHHHH stop this crap...

Everyone is so Busy nowadays, Come out leh... LETS ENJOY LIFE!!!!
Ye xiao mei stop ur proj...
Yuling Quit SCHOOL leh...
The rest all come out leh!!!!
haha... DINGLI JIO U ALL MJ!!!!
BTW ding bought his Long-wanted PSP. He felt great and accomplished to own tt... o.0
He ascended another level into the gaming world liao... Clapz... After showing how thick his skin is... haha... DING, BANZAI!!!!

I just came back from bball session with the bballs chapz... Had a gd outing...
haha... But i ended every session with injuries nowadays... think too pia liao...
My right calf cramped... haha... i make out alot of "weird" sound... haha u noe...
Derick my saviour... SHUAI!!!! without thinking he pick up my leg and help me...
Took off my shoe and with my smelly sock in his hands... he rescued me... SHUAI!!!!!
Xie xie ni!!! ARIGATO!!! 谢谢!!!

Recently, i have been watching Baseball anime... It kind of really inspires me... Though many of you will say... sad life watch anime... der!!! But its a gd hobby for me... heh*
One impt pt of the anime i learnt is
"YOU CAN BE INFERIOR TO OTHERS PHYSICALLY OR WHATSOEVER, SHOW YOUR GUTS!!! PROVE TO THEM HOW STRONG MENTALLY YOU ARE!!!!" LOSE NVM, COME BACK AND PROVE THEM WRONG THE NEXT TIME ROUND!!! NEVER GIVE UP AND YOU WILL BE FINE!!!!"

BASEBALL is not a hot sport in singapore though, But i think its a very nice sport!!!
How gd and fun life will be if really u can earn a living through sports... HAHA... Childhood dream, and its still a dream....

Been deciding to go study in SIM, but now still abit hesistant whether really wan to study or not... U dun make decision U wont move forward in life... I am STUCKED!!!
I AM UP FOR COUNSELLING PPZ.... Auto sign up...
haha...

Now Hungry le... wan to go mum mum.... ITADAKIMASU!!!

Welcome to the World Of Nothing

2007-10-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

This blog growing algae liao le... so long never come update...
Actually started out this blog to be like a diary like tt... but eventually perhaps laziness overpower me le...

Today is October13th le... Time really pass very fast huh... so fast another yr gonna pass le...
So long le still dunno wat to do... haiz... time keep ticking away at this moment as i blog...

What is the future gonna be like? wondering how it will be like...
Definitely its gonna be carved out by me... but the problem is i dunno wat type of future to carved out eh... NOT A VERY GD ARTIST...

Took leave for this week... have been staying at home online, watching One Piece... Want to go out but dun think anyone available ba... wan to go ard Singapore to relax, shop, eat and enjoy de... LIFE is so dull now... colorless lo... GO buy some paint spray make it more colorful and meaningful...

Another 9months + to ORD... after tt day will be the day my life reach the next phase le...
got alot of things wan to do, get, accomplish... hao duo hao duo...

HAHA... actually life is stuck now... cos dont seems there is a direction to go to now... WIll god point at a direction for me to follow? Hao wu zu oh...

The world of nothing

2007-07-28T18:33:00.000+08:00

Dunno what happen... this week hit by a "suay" wave..
Super ultimate suay...

Monday: Dun wan to go nights off, then kenna order to go nights off as well as go home visit for one of my injured recruit... ok there i went...
Do everything until finish then 9.30pm then left the recruit house to go eat my dinner... finish dinner... here comes... heard got bus 39 to go straight back to pasir ris... then went to interchange to take it... immediately reach there one bus 39 left... wah ok mayb wont be late for last ferry still... then the next bus 39 came and i took until pasir ris... once reach pasir ris i alight... i thought must cross road to take 89 back to ferry terminal... so wan to cross road... then the 89 on this side came as i cross road... i wait until bus 89 came then tt bus uncle told me the other side... i was like wth tt bus i shld have took it... zzz... then i immediately took the bus 89 on the correct side to ferry terminal... reach there... ^%$#% the ferry left just nice...
No choice have to go home then took cab home... not enough money then have to call my mum come down save me...

The next day... took the very first bus there but in the end i still miss my schedule ferry... wah really cannot trust SBS bus... slow like dunno wat... can TIBS set up bus straight from woodlands to pasir ris....

Yesterday... Kenna F... for no particular reason by my pc... till now i still dunno why i get F for...
but nvm tts part and parcel of life... ZY ask me wan go pub today on thursday... i say not confirm just in case got something pop up... wah really happen eh... Yesterday evening at the end of last event... i start to feel dizzy, and started to vomit... by 9pm i vomitted 6 times... until my stomach really nothing... dunno wat hit me... body feel very weak... first time i uncounter this kind of thing... i cannot even walk properly... wobbling as i walk also... then wan to see the doc at my neighbouring blk... wah closed... really damn "lucky"...
the lucky thing is my house got medicine i can take... now no more fever and vomit... gonna see doctor later...

Haiz... Hope no more such thing happen to me... looking forward to the next day... hope that its a gd day for me and everyone else...

World of Nothing

2007-07-07T11:07:00.000+08:00

Erm... Time pass really damn fast...
4+ month no update this blog of mine...
My life is draining away everyday... so many things have past, done and to be done still...
Really stacked with alot of things to do in the army... Hardly a chance to breathe...

Being a Sergeant is not a easy... Got all sorts of recruits... overall not bad though... mostly jokers...
Onli got 2 big problem kid... Well i wont elaborate on tt 2... will drive u crazy one those guyz...

Talk about things which i miss ba...
Ok first thing... MY TRIP TO TAIWAN...
Well, it's not ownself go with friends... Sponsored by army.. cos go there train then got free days there...
The feeling of first time being onboard an aircraft... woot, damn exciting...
The sky is very B E A Utiful... SIA food not bad... quite nice... But the girls not tt chio though... haha...
So we reach taiwan... Went to train then go to Taipei for R&R... Reach there very late in the first night... then went out walk ard my hotel area... BA DE road...
Cos we under tour so the morning all have to follow bus ard, night time then is our FREE time... so the bus bring us to theme park and their places of attraction... One of their theme park very big man... play ard 5hrs still at one part of their place onli... still 5 parts of theme park to go lo... no chance to go play all... One of the game is water-associated... so i and another 2 friends went to challenge it... played it 2 in a row then end up whole body WET then go back bus... Then damn cold in the bus... haha...

The first night went to Si Men Ding... The Orchard road of Taipei... things there a bit more expensive than other place... but still very cheap... bought a bag and a t- shirt and tu chan...
2nd night went to Shi ling... Their night market hao da wo... Got hao da da chicken cutlet... The smelly beancurd damn smelly la!!! BTH... haha... i bought shirts, and presents for the ladies... The girls there very power... all so kawaii de... very friendly also... however the best place where alot of chio bu is Wu Fen Pu...
Wah there ah... really alot man... Notice a girl keep looking at me and exchance glance with me... but never go ask her name and hp no... haha... i noe all sure say i cannon one... haha nvm... Ok, tt place like bugis street like tt... but alot bigger though... there ah, is bloody hell shopping heaven for girls la... bring you (yl, cn, hf and the girls) all go there sure dun wan come back liao lo... haha... drag also no use... sure superglued there...
but one reminder... dun go in the day to the night markets... like ghost town like tt... afternoon 3+ start then going to be fun liao... shops mostly open liao... the clothes there very nice and very cheap... bought the most there... oh remember at Wu fen pu... heard the news one of the camp got airplane crash into then got 2 sg NSF die... wonder where man at tt time... after tt Smses back from sg come... asking whether i ok or not... so happy to receive those smses from u guyz man... Thanks alot...

OH ya... i finally step on Zhong xiao Dong lu with my very own legs... haha... Not bad... SOGO very de big... the service there damn gd also.... clapz...
During training, everyone was so wanting to be back home... but on the last day when we were going back from taipei... all was like... "Sianz, so fast going back liao... wah lau eh... " haha... WTF rite... lol... i was one of them... heheh...
Reach singapore and went to DFS to buy things... haha bought Liquor,wine and perfume... the perfume lady one dunno why i buy also... lol...
Overall, i overspent big time in May... very big time man... but no regret... I understood why girls like shopping so much le... haha... zhen shuang... the feeling...

Ok la... stop here blog again next time... which i dunno is when...
Actually got pics de... my friends up till now haven send me... -_-"
Hao le... Ciaoz

World of Nothing

2007-02-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

The previous time i posted was near the middle of my BSLC course in SISPEC...
So fast next week the course is ending... will be embarking on the next course soon...
Was hoping to be posted to air force... but think unlikely... Wont be so lucky ba me..

Well nvm... watever comes, just have to brave it man... 2 yrs is fast...
Yeah it did...
I was packing my things as its new yr tml... saw my things in my cupboard... brought back alot of memories as i packed... could still remember wat happen on that fateful day... as i still kept the piece of document used tt day...

Yeah it was heartbreaking but mayb its fate... Not meant to be perhaps...
The world is changing as every seconds ticks by... Really cant predict wat will happen in the future ba...

Getting lost in touch with the civilian life... Like almost everyone is in a very fast pace... cant catch up... haha...
Yearning to be back on my civilian life in 1.5 yrs time...
I felt i have been to "not serious" in approaching my life... think i shld start to look seriously into my future le... wat i wan to be and achieve when i finish my army life...
Feel i got so much more to learn in life and be accomplish in something...
Wan to go Uni, learn guitar, Jap car licence... ,etc.
Wah got so many things ahead... Hope my uni application successful... But think is onli 10%...
Shld have put in more effort during poly... Slack too much... really too much... haha

Tml is Chinese New Yr 2007, the start of the PIG yr...
Wish Everybody have a Gd holiday and a great yr ahead of them...

World of nothing

2007-01-14T17:39:00.000+08:00

Its more than a month since i last updated this blog...
Xmas is over and now we are in year 2007...
Time really flies fast isnt it...

I am now attending Bslc in SISPEC...
Dingli and Joshua also there...
Tml will be the start of the 5th week... and we will P.O.P on the 10th week which is 24th Feb 2007.
Tt very week is Chinese New Year, so hopefully we will get at least a week off before we go into our new unit...
Army life is very sianz... Lots of training... Its makes me fitter but dunno why still got the sianz feeling...
I miss my civilian life alot... haha...
I bet everyone is the same like me... So tts why i still dun understand why still got pp sign on for army...

Mayb i am not up for the challenge ba...
Starting next week, tough training will commence and hell will descend upon me...
6 weeks more...

Heard that Uni application is starting at end of this month... Hopefully it is successful...
Unsuccessful also wont be disappointed ba... No one to blame except myself for not putting in the effort in poly...
Slack too much till today... haha...
But if really successful i will put in those effort to study well...

Looks like my future job will be at SIA and hopefully they employ me... Aerospace industry is booming... lots of planes are coming in to SIA , therefore jobs are available i hope...
ORD in August next year and its either study or work there ba...

Alot of self planning to do...
Time wait for no ones...

World of Nothing

2006-12-06T19:35:00.000+08:00

7 weeks has passed since my last entry...

Yesterday i graduated from Pulau Tekong BMTC school 2 Pegasus company...
It was a very emotional day... graduating with my platoon mates...
The parade was very gd... Now i noe how those national day parade pp feels...
It is very tiring to stand under the hot sun and cannot move an inch while the whole parade is going on... unless the parade commander gives a command for us to move...

Now tt i have attained Private... its only the starting of the nightmare...
I think most likely i will be going to SISPEC like desmond...
Think i will die down there... haha...

We had a very fun last 2 days in our company... having lots of funs and pranks... lol...
But unfortunately is tt i am sick after P.O.P... zzz
38.8ºC fever...
Tml having soccer session with army mates... dunno whether will get better to go...

I think i miss alot of fun things going on in life... which i mean civilian life... How i wish army will end soon... which is impossible... cos i ORD at August 2008... which is still hell away...
And one crap thing is i need to go back to tekong on the next tuesday... zzz... Got pick to return to watch CO parade... school 2 changing CO... And no choice... was picked to go back...

Oh b4 i forget... Ah Teck got platoon best for his platoon... shld be going for Officer liao... congrats to him...
Need to rest and go out to walk ard singapore... its like years away from singapore the feeling...
so undescribable...
ok la... enough crap...

World of nothing

2006-10-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

Hello guyz...

Book out from army on Friday for the first time...
After confinement of 2 weeks in Pegasus company of BMTC 2...

Army is an experience... a Must-go process for all guyz of singapore citizenship...
Being in the army... lets us understand and appreciate how gd singapore mainland is...
Its still considered ok in the army... But I believe the worst has yet to arrive at the dock...
Discipline and Fitness is very impt in the army...
Now my fitness i feel is not yet even consider a pass in the army...
Need to train very hard i feel... there are alot fitter guyz out there...

My whole BMT is 9 weeks... so in 7 weeks time, its POP day... which is on the 5th of Dec...
Time flies fast... so shld be over in no time...

In the army... they say you will meet all sort of pp... Its true...
however i dun wish to further explain further...

In the first week, i was still fine...
but on the very monday of the 2nd week... i got fever of 38.4º...
After which on wednesday, i feel i am ok to start training...
Then i hurt my neck... then exempt training till book out...
Now my fitness worsen liao... Think i wont be able to catch up in the pace...
My throat is a major blow... In a very bad condition since the fever...
Lost my voice too... hopefully it recovers soon...

Then on Saturday which is 2 days ago... went out eat and bowling...
For no big reason... had a war of words with daven... he hot suddenly...

Then just now played bball... i did not feel at my very best... somemore wet floor...
I just wanted to enjoy myself out there... Then some asshole think he is very gd in bball...
Eh **** off la... Let my sickness recover... we'll play and see who sux la...
When u sux pp never say anything... so when others are not playing well... just keep the bloody mouth shut...

On the above event... i think some of you noe who i referring to... Btw my temper now abit fired up... need some ice... Yuan think so too...
Must keep myself calm... REN!!!
Perserverance is a virtue...

World of nothing

2006-09-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

Today i log in with a different mood from previous occasions...

My mood is quite bad... Someone pisses me off just now...
Just be like a man la.. Yes or no answer only...

Long time since i get agitated... think the last time is by our One and only God... Whose best trick is pulling others potential out... He got me tt time...

This week i have played 5 days of bball... and had gone for jogging...
Some exercises before my enlistment in 2 weeks time...
That time still saying why must wait so long... now left 2 weeks then i feel sianz...
But nonetheless its a MUST for all boys... So just relax and await the day...

Actually nothing much to update... life been normal...
Yuan and Zy ask why i never update... so here i am...
Updating... A short one though...

The World of nothing

2006-08-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...
Sashiburi ja mina...

Quite a period since my last pen...
Did not noe wat to write... therefore decided on not submitting any entry...

Will be going to Genting again later.... will be back on saturday evening...
Pockets empty liao... keep spending... :(
The countdowns to me entering NS is coming down... left 37 days...
However someone is faster... DING...
haha...
Hao lian with me when he finished attachment last friday...
Then he reached home, he found his army letter saying 9th he will be going in... which is next saturday...
HAHA... really funny...
I also left with abt 4 weeks also... cannot hao lian...

Today is ZY's bday... I nearly forgotten... as i had a tiring day today...
Went to work... In need of money... Guess wat...
We had 3 turnovers in succession...
^#^$%#...
I was considered lucky liao... Those start work earlier than me and going to work till night one total have 5 turnovers the whole day... God Bless them...
Ok back to his bday... I sent him a sms wishing him also... if not later will kp say bo sim...
I wondered his gd brother Tiko Gei got wish him or not... haha...

Last Sat he was drunk... hero mama... drink alot...
I was not able to be with him... a so called earlier bday outing for him...
but there is always another day pal... Guys buay ge gao one hor....

Was with my secondary's classmates for Vanessa's bday...
Had a indon buffet... ok la... not bad... but too much spices... ~HOT~
Then watched "BREAK UP", though ^certain things^ anyhow pop up again...
A "not bad show" except for its ending... My feeling at tt monent for was tt the show ending abruptly... bu zhi bu jue... haha... Thought still got a bit more to go...
Then went to Balcony to relax...
Follow by a trip to Geylang for supper and a little ard singapore ride b4 reaching home...

One surprising thing is... I think the bball boys will be ~AMAZED~ also...
JOE is candy BF now... The policeman JOE...
WAHAHA rite...

Downloaded quite alot of songs recently... There's 2 songs i liked from Shayne Ward...British Idol Winner... If i am not wrong...
^That's my goal^ and ^No promise^
Nice songs...
I am so into anime now... haha... particularly Bleach and Naruto... Which still has many episodes to come...
Watashi gote jiusan dai louku bang dai dai jo Kuchiki Byakuya...
lol...
May the world be full of smiles~

The World of nothing

2006-08-12T03:06:00.000+08:00

Yo, sashiburi

Today is 12th of August...
Been lazy and nothing to update... so never blog...

Today just went for bball and after that to 768 for dinner...
Had a better performance during bball just now...
But i think i hurt my back abit...
Aches a bit...

Then at 768 just now... A fight broke out...
RARE sight at this place...
A group of Indians and another group of uncles fought...
Bottles for beer were flying ard...
I was sitting at air-conditioned area... while they were fighting at smoking area outside...
It was "ping piang" here and there and chaotic outside... One uncle even came into the "Zhi Cha" stall and took 2 "Cai Dou"...
I supposed he was "on fire" and was wanting to chop the ah nehs...
Dingli think his life too long... keep wan to "chou re nao"... lucky he never go...
Dai kia...
Then police and paramedics came abt 10 mins later when the fight had ended...

We waited for the fight to finish then we went home... When the fight was still on...
We still joked abt "If Zha dan was here, He would have keep begging us to go home faster or he would have hide under the table..."
So funny...
So Bomb, its time for u to buck up and be a man...
Dun run when time comes for u stand up for urself...
Please clear urself from the title of "Singapore's No.1 Humji Kia"...
U can start by not running when the Green Man of traffic light starts to flicker...
haha...

WCC wanted to start a fight today at court also... but was stopped by me...
Our potential puller, The God, was again at his best... Pulling others' potential out...
Today our victim is WCC... but in the end he still calm down... which is good for everyone...

Went to watch fireworks at Esplanade on National Day eve... Only saw it halfway through...
It was partly block by a building also... As usual, this kind of occasion would be crowded...
But having a great sight with crowds is gd too... with the atmosphere...
But overall... I felt that it was not as gd as that i saw on New Year's eve...

Daven was saying," How is it to feel if watching this with the special someone in your heart?"
I told him you will have your chance one day...
"The special someone" ha...

Recently after watching "Naruto" to its present episode which is 195... I started on watching "Bleach"...
I also finished watching it to 90... It was a nice anime...
Anime is nice to watch... but it took out my normal sleeping time as well as my energy...
haha... Some sacrifice for some good stuff...
Hopefully the website update the latest epissode of these 2 anime soon...
gonna find some new anime to watch...

Left with 54 days of freedom...
The world of nothing

2006-08-03T03:04:00.000+08:00

I log in... stare at com for many mins but dunno how to start off...
so just type it out... pretty stupid isnt it...?

Its August already... so fast... How time leaks away...
Today is Ivan's bday... accompany him to eat at Gelare...
Hope he doesnt feel in NO MAN's LAND...
Btw he still has his gd buddy TIKO GEI ard... So many similar features... haha...

My situation with her is still the same...
Its just like a war...
The communication network still doesnt work...
I am trying to build bridges to her land but she will always send soldiers to break down my construction...
She will send forward messengers and said :" Give it up!!! I told you you wont be able to succeed!"
What to do... Obviously it dents my army's morale... my troops will be down on their mood on few occasions... However, they feel they wont give up easily, just like their general...
My army knows and understand what they are doing... They know they will be happy in her land...
Regardless what the Queen did to them, they do not mind...
Even though we are banished... we remain faith and sincere...
We hope to regain her trust... The Bridge of Trust is still under construction...
The war prevails...

Even if it is a short time... warmth can be felt...
Friday will be 4th... ~thinking~

Am tired... will dose off in a while... to A place where what u think might come true...
* DREAMS LAND *
The world of Nothing...

2006-07-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

Finally... my com is fixed...

Went to my cousin's house to pick it up and carry it all the way home...
Felt like i lost in touch with the world for this whole week...
Never online... nothing...

I am feeling very tired... woke up at 6am... Awakened by thunder... -.-
Now still doing abit of setting on my pc... then still got one tv drama to watch b4 i can slp...

Not gonna write long... just log in to type something...
mayb tml or wed then write something meaningful or wat...
Watever... we'll see...

Tml will be working though... Zzzz
For the sake of lui...

2006-07-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

Its late night on saturday again...

Nothing to do... so log in and blog something ba...
My working policy now is off days on weekends which include fridays so that i can go out and enjoy my life... However, things just werent gonna come my way...
I wan to go out!!! but no one to go out with me... Can you believe it? So lonely de lo...
Then if got go out... alot of limitations... Which some dun wan go far or go until very late...
Especially our Tiko Gei... smack him... if he 1 person wan to go home then the rest couldnt possibly just pang seh him then in the end all go home... Bth... tor hui... Come on.. be more spontaneous...
BTW... pls be a bit brave to put ur name at my tag... haha...
Poor Zy... but he deserve it also... wahahaha

So now today i am stuck at home rotting... If like that i would have go work for more money...
$$$, the important factor living in this modern society, especially this fast-paced Singapore...
U cannot live without $$$... Everyone is moving so fast ahead in technology and trean(think wrong spelling)... And me... a slow moving turtle is having a hard time catching up at this fast paced... After having created a big mess in my life when i was 17... I have begun to pick up the bits and pieces in my life to really catch up with this fast paced world...

My image which i long knew just sux... but i have no idea and courage to really go do something abt it... But now i am setting aside resources to do something abt it... Wat can be done? Wat can be changed? Wat can be improved? Wat needs to be removed?

Clothing, specs, hair, face, shoes, behaviour... I hoped someone is there to guide me through... suggestions, opinions or comments...

"It's always better late than never" but sometimes things can just never be late...
I hope i am not late...
I am often a late-comer which many pp perceive me to be... but dun just stamped "confirmed" on me as that...
It just depends on the events, the person that relates to whether its appropriate...

Yes... There is still many things to do in life... I am grateful i still had a chance to do and accomplish things in my life... But is there CHANCE in another particular thing which i have been thinking???

Who noes... God noes...
Singapore is small but i still have not been to alot of places in this little dotz in the world map...
Pathetic pumpkin i am...
Hey ppz... Pls dial my HP to jio me out on weekends... Do it fast... Book me!!!!
HAHA...
Sad soul waiting for call...

2006-07-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

This entry will be no.21st...

Its been 3 months ever since i started blogging again... i think so...

Went to watch Pirates of Caribbean Dead Man's Chest yesterday night...
It was a very nice show... will recommend pp to watch them... Still got part 3...
Awaiting the show...
The feeling of watching late night show... the atmosphere... Its so great...
Love tt feeling... Hope that there is more chance to have such nice show and atmosphere...

Its back to working today... for money... Went to Ntuc to walk ard after work just now...
Bought myself some things... Happy to be spending a little money... haha...
So fast one day over liao... soon tml will be over...
I wan to go learn car... however sianz...
NS blocks the way... cannot complete in time b4 i enter army...
Money also not happy... block the way... haha...
Wondering when then can i drive my own Beautiful car...?
Definitely after i have a fix and gd income... still long ba i guess...
Nonetheless... Licence will be the priority...

Feel like going overseas again in september b4 i enter army in OCT...
WHO IS INTERESTED?
Now i feel money is not enough... erm... actually is always... lol...
Wan to buy my new phone also... O2 one... but dunno for wat use leh... NS cannot use...
nvm not priority...

Talking abt O2... Ye qing bought new phone sia... Rich girl...
Hope i no need buy... tio the lucky draw then can liao... Then i can get one free O2 phone
Tt will have to dream though... haha...

Quite stressful living in this modern society... So difficult to live without any worries...
But thats the challenge and fun in tackling the all sorts of things that is going to happen in our life...
Learn with each meaningful day...

2006-07-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

Actually there isnt much to blog...
Nothing much happening in my dotz dotz life... Work and work... Really poor lo yesterday... left 5 bucks... over spent...
Lucky get pay today... $135... keep working... Earn more... then i can have alot more to do in my life... By end of friday shld have $300... hoho... But work more... Hope to have 2k by september after minusing the daily spendings... and enjoyment...
But tt is really "Sweat-Blood" money... Everyday work like coolie like tt... carry here carry there... Hotel really @#$%#... Save money until like tt... wan to turnover one big ballroom onli got me one guy carrying all tables, stages and chairs... Everyday work finish, i smelt so smelly...

Today went to SB to find her... Got a treat of an ice coffee she made... never ask her the name of tt... and a blueberry muffin... which she is already sick of it... just have a short moment of chat with her while she had a 20min break... After that went off ard 9.30pm... to let her work...
She is still working now i guess... until late night...

There is many things i still gotta accomplish... There is no use of working hard if you dun believe in urself... Be confident...

2006-07-09T07:12:00.000+08:00

5years...Tml will be her bday and it is the day when i reached wat i have promised her b4...
5years... Been classmates, been 2gether, had happy times, heart-breaking times,and guess am a nobody to her now...
Ironically, out of the many bdays she has had, from the day i knew her... I have only truely celebrated for her once on the 10th itself...in 2003
She has forgotten abt it i guess... Wish that she is happy on her every coming bdays...
Her coming bday be flourished with presents...

Yesterday i was unable to sleep again... laid from 1am to 4+ then i could doze off... Now onli 7.20am i woke up le... couldnt sleep again...
I came to find myself very useless... a weakling now...
I never accomplished anything ever since sec sch...
Academic wise, my results just wasnt gd in poly... No hardwork put in...
Physically, i am very weak now...
Easily hit emotionally like a gu niang...
Relationship failed too...
Keep whining and sighing...
So what have i been living ard for? Been searching for ans... Guess it shld be to search back my ownself... The fighting spirit... the confidence... Undying self motivation...

Childhood dreams maybe considered dreams to many... I wish i can realise mine... but guess it will be dreams in this society...
What do u aspire to be when u are young?
I wish to be a great sportsman when i was young... But it will be always a dream...
I wanted to be a basketball player playing in NBA... A short guy like me will never fulfill that dream... Even if i am really really that gifted, shorty like me wont be able to make it i guess...
Dreamt to be a gymnast representing singapore and winning medals too... Part of the reason i transferred to Riverside... Did won two 3rds for the sch in my first year... But this dream is far-fetched as well...
Now i yearn to be a F1 driver... Even more unreachable isnt it...

How many pp can really realise the childhood dream they have... I am not chosen to be the lucky ones...
Its time to do something abt myself... Time to really really grow up...

2006-07-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my graduation ceremony...

Wear smartly and attended the ceremony and received my Diploma after 3 years of education in SP...

After the ceremony, we had photo taking sessions... Everyone was taking photos... Hopefully i get those pics from them then i could post it here... I think everyone had a great time...

JJ was our top student... He rightfully deserved that as he had really put in hard work all 3 years in his study... Congrats to him...
Looking at my own results just make me sigh... Shld have put in more hard work to study too... Guess i played too much...
If any of my university application is accepted next year or whenever, i will put in hard work to study well...
After the ceremony, had a little gathering with sec school mates... 10 of us...
Ate at Cafe Cartel... I was the last to reach and my order came after they had all eaten finish...
So stress while i was eating, haha... All waiting for me...
I wore formally and they said i looked like insurance agent... haha... Keep saying they dun wan to buy from me... lol...
There were full of jokes... Definitely with the presence of our joker king Joshie...
There was this chio bu who they were discussing abt.... True, that girl was very chio... She sat on the table beside us... haha...
We went for pool after that, follow by a movie entitled " Thank You For Smoking"...
The whole movie was speeches all the way, without much actions-packed... If you have a good command of english, you might enjoy the whole movie... My command of Eng Ge Ren was average so i only could understand as much as i could... Josh enjoyed the show very much... Laughing most of the time... At one pt i fell aslp... haha... Partly becos i was tired...
Basically, we all had a great time hanging out... Its been some time since we had a gathering...
Hope the next gathering come soon...

2006-07-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

I am weak psychologically...
Easily hit emotionally perhaps...

However, compared to last time, I have grown stronger mentally... Though still weak...
Things which i am still not able to put down...

Had a chat with CN... What she said is true though...
Its been long since then...
I like the memories that i had when i was with HER... Those which she has long forgotten abt...
That i dun wan to put it down...
That she is not the same person she was before...
I am just feeling lonely...

Yeah, I am lonely... but i never resent the fact i am... I do hope that someone is there, whom i can share everything to... I am not si xin yan though... just that i have a good determination... and Long-lasting battery... haha...
Does it matter how she has changed? Its just how u accept that person and compromise... I, too also has changed aint it?
Sometimes i feel i better off alone than i am with others... alone in a world i feel i am more comfortable with...
Happiness seems so momentary to me... Its long since i am feeling really really really happy...
The feeling of being with her... The feeling of winning 3rd in National gymnastics... The feeling of playing in Inter-school bball... mayb a few more?
It seems very long ago though...

This is part of life i guess... Becos life is always not what you would expect it to be... So i accept the facts also... I am moving on in life also... Never standing still...
As of matters of the heart... I have no say in it... It is up to the nature to decide...
Becos its not so easy to say u dun like then u wont like that person... Easier Said Than Done
So i just leave it up to nature, god to decide ba...
Or guess i am just not fated to be loved... haha...

She is still in my heart... but i am not going to say anything abt it ba... Erm... its i cant do anything ba... haha... I am going to live happy also.. cos no one wan to be sad also... She is happy now is all that matters le... She finds a better man or wat, i will be happy also rite... ???? erm... haha...
Somemore theres nothing i can do... If wan to compare with other guys... think i will lose out also... WO TAI XUN le... haha... XUN-_-"

Lol... suddenly thought of this thing... "SI MO GU"... haha CN... tell her then u noe... haha
There is more things that a man has to do other than matters of love... Time to start being a man... haha...
Cannot let others kan bian.... Yao Jia You... GamBaTe...

2006-07-02T06:31:00.000+08:00

Man are so vulnerable...
Physically or emotionally... It is so easy to be wounded...
Physical wounds can be healed, but a scar will be left behind...
Emotional wounds... there is no certainty that it can be healed... and the scar will be always there...
Where a person is hurt tremendously upon his/her mental ability.... How long is it going to take him/her to recover? months? years? 1 year? 5 years? 10 years?

Ever experience the feeling of emotional heartache and physical heartache? Which one is more unbearable? If u can choose, which one would u like to experience...
Both are unbearable... but emotional heartache is a combination of all... may result in physical wounds too...

How does it feels to be alone?
You have so much in mind to say, yet there is not one person u feel u can speak to... all the things( happiness, sadness, troubles) stuffed in the mind... There is no one to share to... the feeling of helplessness appears once more...
You can only keep talking to your own mind and keep asking lots of question.... but you wont get any answers...

Daylight is out... sky starting to brighten up...
Happy moments are always short... ( Tian xia wu bu san zi yan xi)
The time when happy moments gathers will end somehow...
Be happy when there is... dun sigh when it ends...

Had quite a few gatherings recently with the girls and guyz... ktv, mahjong & world cup session, movie... Has seen her a few more times becos of that... I have been nicknamed "The Pian Zi" by them... for winning their money... dotz dotz for that...
Never expect myself to step into her house again and to see her family...
Saw the La pi xiao xin i gave her... The puzzle of beauty and the beast that i made for her on the wall...
Happy that she likes them...
Reminds me of the many things i did and the happy times and sad times in the past... but that doesnt matter isnt it... The fact that she is living happily now is all that matters...
Guess she has patched up with that guy... envy him... hope he treats her well too...
Have seen many cases where couples break up and patch up...

I never had the chance to patch up... No matter how much i love her... how much i will treasure her ... no matter how i have changed...
Perhaps its still that sentence ba... She is happy is all that matters...

Misunderstandings, quarrels, disagreement... all these can happen so easily...
But to resolve them is so difficult...
To all... Dun let small misunderstandings become big ones... resolve when it is still able to... dun assume anything... Assumptions is the beginning of all misunderstandings...

The end of a boring blog... by a boring person... Life has to go on...

2006-06-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

Ever experience the feeling of "so near yet so far "?
The feeling of helplessness that just makes you sigh... Haiz...

What makes music so great?
The sound generated? the rhythm within the song? The feelings upon or while listening to the music? Or the many memories that we recalled?

There can be so many reasons on why our life needed music, and how music can bring upon the colours into your life... While i am typing now, i am listening to music as well... Enjoying the song while i type out whatever "Fei hua" in my mind...
Haha...
Last time, i did not enjoy and understand music as i could now... Did not understand the many things that SHE love abt music...

There are many times when We, human wan to voice out what we think... but those words just dun seems to be able to come out from the mouth... Therefore many things are just kept in the mind and locked within our soul...
However, sometimes, maybe our thoughts are better kept within ourselves... Becos u will question yourself: So what if others noe what i am thinking?

The human mind is just so complicated to understand...
Maybe we shldnt think so deeply into life...
Just live it out and we will understand one day....

Been watching Hong Kong serial drama on channel 55 of SCV... Recently, there is a drama series on matters of love, marriage and the way in handling human relationship...
Its called "Lao Po Da Ren"...
The couple are called Ge Guo Guang and Gao Ximin...
Guo Guang always called Ximin "Da ren"... tts how some guys called their wives however in this case, part of the reason is also becos she is a magistrate...
He takes care of the house and baby, while she works in court... A modern family...
The story is interesting but if i am going to type, its gonna be an essay liao....Lol
On yesterday episode, Guo guang said something which i found to be very meaningful...
I agreed with it...
"Its not the product(things) that matters... Its the thought and dedication given into making the product that matters...
I agree with it... Its not the things which will touch a person's heart... its the effort put in that will touch a person's heart...
The effort and hardwork...

Yesterday, went to ktv with the girls( Yulingz & sis, Huifangz , Ningz & bf)...
listen to them sing again... haha...
Though i am very tired and the nose is troubling me, had a fun time there...
The girls sang their hearts out... Zhang huimei made them breathless...
lol... the pitch is so high... But they are gd... ~.~
Some of the MTVs are funny also...
Glad to see her smiling and laughing whole night...
That suits her the most... The laughters and the smile...

Hao le ba... That's all folks...

2006-06-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

One week never update my blog...
hoho...

Went for ktv with sec sch friends in wednesday... (Yulingz, Hengz, Huifangz, Qing Ningz and Dingz)
The girls are very gd in their singing... haha... Compare to them, we guyz are... haha

Then the next day which is Thursday, i just roam ard... cycling ard and Zuo Bo.... walk in cwp alone...

Itwas so sianz... Buay tahan... Then came a call... which i did not pick up...
lol... Becos i did not hear my phone rang...
Then i call back...
" Wan mahjong bo?"
The girls' hands were "itchy"... Haha...
Then i went over to CN house and then we played and watched soccer...
We went to have breakfast at 300+ kopidiam...
I saw Huifang's mum for the first time since 2 yrs ago... She smiled at me and i gave a bright smile in return... hehe...
As we were standing at a distance i did not call out "Aunty, ni hao"
The girls ordered wu-xiang from Aunty... i had a bit and woo... the food and chilly is still gd as ever... though its a bit oily...
We went back for another few rounds of mahjong b4 we ended ard noon? then we rested a while and had a chat session...
They were having the talks and i just keep quiet and listen... ~GIRLS TALK~
After that we went to CWP to have YOSHINOYA for lunch before we departed for our own activities...
Had bball that night... alot of them came down...
Its a long time since so many would gather for one session of bball and talk cock...
I had a long sleep once i reach home and had my shower...
Going Bball now also... Just now went ktv again with Bombster, Zhiyuan and Derick...
K ciao... ppz...

2006-06-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i hurt my right thigh during bball session... it felt so painful...
My right thigh knocked against the diamond-liked knee of our Elder(Shen Pek) as i drove down the court towards the ring... It did not feel that pain during that time... but it hurt during night and i could not sleep... Started lying on the bed from 2.30am and till 5am i could not sleep... BTH... switched on the com and played The Twin Heroes until 6.30am... then lie on the bed for another hour before i could have a good and sound sleep...

I think i am having insomnia... Many occasions i just cannot sleep and the brain just keep straying into the deep ocean...

Today, we had a gathering for our Bombster... who booked out for the first time from Tekong... Walk ard CWP and had our meal... He told us abt his experiences in the army for the past two weeks... We wanted to go ktv... however, the price was just way too overboard... 85++, not including other charges... So we changed our mind and went to CCK to have pool session... I had a bad session... lost all the 3 games i played... Got no feeling with the queue stick i used just now... lol..
So we played finish and i am back home using my keyboard to type my entry... Haha...

Yulingz... Thanks for coming by to my blog... lol... Thought you were very busy de? How have u been recently? Heard from CN u went to penang... Fun bo? No matter what, stay happy and with all smiles :)

World cup News coming up...
Argentina gave the best performance of the tournament by thumping Serbia & Montengro 6-0... It was the biggest scoreline in this world cup till this point of time... They advanced to the last 16 knockout stages together with Holland who overcame Cote' di voir ( Ivory Coast) 2-1...
Germany, Ecuador, England, Portugal also advanced to the last 16 after their 2nd win of their various matches...
Now, TV is showing Czech Republic vs Ghana... Ghana scored after just 1 min 40 secs... lol...

Ok world cup reports stop here... haha...
Dun talk so much abt soccer le... quite sianz rite...
A smile brights up the day...

2006-06-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

Haven blog for a few days... Or say mayb a little too lazy or there is nothing much to blog about...

Both are true... lol...
Abit of worms creeped up on me and there isnt anything much to say abt these few days...
Other than the normal daily things we human do, there is nothing special i guess...

I wan to work... They say full bookings... Then when i am sleeping in the morning, they will keep calling me... BTH... Then when i call back, nobody pick up the phone... -_-" dotz dotz dotz man...

Very poor man... So many things have in planning liao... $$$ is the main character... If not the show cannot commence... How many times have i cried poor? lol... alot of times, i supposed...

Yuan never reply me about that packing job... sianz... Its been quiet these few days... No activity...

Had a chat with our ever cheerful Ye Qing that day... She so happy lo... Back from her HK trip... and she bought so many things... Thats what girls are most enthu doing... SHOPPING lo...
Haha...
Last time still got MJ session so got meet up... now all busy... think got quite a period never see them liao... Got time lets meet up ba...

World Cup fever is all over the place... everywhere is talking abt soccer... And yesterday night, cup holders Brazil played their first match against Croatia... Great goal from Kaka saw them through with 1-0...
Went to buy Toto on monday... Saw many teens at the outlet... looking at the odds panel for soccer betting... Reminded me of the past... Hopefully no ones become like the old me...

Tml think i shld go out ba... been at home for yesterday and today... BTH liao... kind of boring at home... but go out must spend money... Headache... but nonetheless thats what makes it nice... Spending money... heheh

My bro found one of the games i liked to play on my outdated Sega Saturn on PS 2... Dragon Force... Now make me abit gian wan to buy PS 2... but that one is not a necessity... so it wont takes priority... Haiz, thought of something...

Ok la... Dun worry be happy!!!!

2006-06-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

Just came back home... Went to ktv at partyworld just now...

Had a little disagreement with Daven just now... but now ok le...
First time we buay song with each other... Everytime Ah Ga liao, but dunno why... just now got a a little fire... Becos of me ba... kind of tulan...
but nvm... we guys wont take it to heart... we are ok liao...

Yesterday Argentina won by 2-1... I nearly got the correct score... Had it not for tt stupid Didier Drogba's goal in the 82nd minute...
Just now, the match between Holland and Serbia & Montenegro, i got the correct score... haha...1-0 to Holland... Now showing Mexico vs Iran... and later at 3am, Portugal vs Angola... Dunno going to watch them or not...

In the afternoon, i use Spectre for the first time... Really a damn imbalance hero... First time using it, i get godlike liao... Then the next match, beyond godlike... They must remove the ultimate... too good liao... Later i going to use Spectre one more time...

Sianz, no work for this coming week... full bookings... means no money!!!
I wan to work leh... Great Singapore Sales season leh...
Haiz... Mei Qian Ah!!!

2006-06-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

I just switched on the tv and channel 8 is showing The Twin Heroes... Andy Lau as Jiang xiao yu and Ling qing xia as Hua wu que... The story is different from the one i am playing...
The Hua wu que is a lady in the show... but in the game, its a male...
Storyline got a big difference also... The show is quite old le... filmed long ago...
However its quite a nice show...

Today just went out play bball only... Like yesterday, after i went out of my house... Rain started to pour... So unlucky... Wu fa zhi xing... then waited very long for rain to stop then played a while... Then after playing, we sat down chat for a while... Ivan was complaining he never exist... haha... funny...

World cup started yesterday... Watched both match but not fully... Germany vs Costa Rica ended with the host winning 4-2... As expected, germany won by 2 goals...
2nd match was between Poland and Ecuador... Match finished with Ecuador emerging victorious with 2-0... Poland's players look like never eat rice... Most of them fall easily when they are knocked softly... Ecuador played in the last world cup in Japan/Korea, so they have more experience than the Polish whom is playing their first world cup since 1970s...

Today have 3 matches... England vs Paraguay ended 1-o to England... I never watched it but saw from soccernet that they did not have a good performance... 2nd match is between debutant Trinidad and Tobago, and Sweden... Its a 0-0 stalemate... the underdogs played a good match to hold the swedes to a draw... Last match of the day is starting now... Its between powerhouse Argentina and debutant Ivory Coast... I predict the score to be 2-0 or 3-0 to the south americans...

Its good to be just watching and enjoying the match... Without any bets or watever...
Glad that i have kept my promise...

Wat will tml be like? hmmm... go watch the match ...

2006-06-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

Never blog for the past few days...
Came back on Tuesday night, 6th June from Genting...
The trip was fun... the place is nice and cold also...need to wear jacket around...
Basically it was a nice experience...

Did blog 2 days ago... but the server was down with problem... therefore wasted whatever i had typed...

These few days, i have been in deep thought... thinking hard abt myself...

Great Singapore Sale is on... Got many things to buy... However, I am short on cash...

Haiz... been down on luck... blog again soon...

2006-06-04T05:35:00.000+08:00

In half and hr's time, i will be leaving for Genting...
Will be back by Tuesday night... 6th of June...

Yesterday, i did not blog... haha... Was playing The Twin Heroes 2, Jue Dai Shuang Jiao 2...
Stayed at home for the whole day... Nothing to do... then install it again and play... I lost my The Twin Heroes 3... have the box but not the cds inside... Sianz...
I played quite far liao... heheh... Using Jiang Xiao Yu aka the Xiao mo xing= Little Devil...

Today, i went to IT Roadshow at Suntec with Yuan,YCY and Shen...Yuan and Shen bought thumb drives and keyboards...
I bought MP3... Creative Muvo S200... $99 512MB...
The one with the same model as Dingli's... His one is blue colour and i bought silver colour...
I upload 80 songs into it le... going to enjoy it later during the trip... Bus leaving at 6.15am...
haha i still at home... lol... Because departure point is Causeway Point... so near....
This will be my first trip to Genting... quite Pumpkin... lol...

Hope this trip is most important safe... and of course fun as well... The one who suggest this trip did not go... @##$% right?
Lol cannot blame him also... He is down with sickness since coming back from last Saturday's trip to Sentosa... May he recover fast...
We are going Sentosa again man... better be ok by then...
Ok i gotta rush off liao... After i eat finish one plate of Indo mee...
Lol...
Be back on Tuesday...

2006-06-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

In just a few hrs time, our Tiko Gei will be in Tekong Chalet liao... lol
All the best to him... May The Force Be With Him...

Saw what she wrote in her blog... Never really have any negative feelings...
Thats a gd sign... hehe... My temper is good now... wooosshhhh... ( think can consider like tt) ~.~

I know what she has been trying to tell me... I have done nothing also... I wont feel depress...
But in fact, she is still moving on in her life and i am not interferring...
"What is fated to be yours will always be there... What is not fated to be will never be there..."
Heard this statement from someone... forget is from who... Might be true ba...

I am treating her normally now ah... Not my GF leh... If she is my GF, she will everyday be very happy liao lo... confirm guarantee chop chop chop one... sompa...
If i am not meant to be... i am still a friend... Need not avoid, ignore or use certain ways to...
I did not do anything nasty to her now at all... isnt it? not even a single loud word did i utter out from my mouth in her presence... did i?
If we are not meant to be... she will have her wish granted one day for sure... I can say for sure...

Now is just that i just dun understand... Mystery in my mind... nvm ... she wont understand also...
Her life seems quite messy now... but she grown up le... will know how to handle one... I believe so...
She is a bit different from the "her" who was with me once... She is much stronger mentally, i guess so... Mindset different... More independent... And more troubled now... I wont get to know also...
And it seems i am one of the troubles... haha...
What to do... reduce for her lo...
Need not worry abt me then... wont disturb her...
I wish to share her burden and not increase her burden... Be her happiness and not sadness...

Nature has its own way of planning...

Today apply debit card... not the DBS one... but the new Capitaland card... Promotional...
No need subscription fee for 2 yrs... got 20% cash rebate at the designated shopping mall given in the brochure...
going to apply the DBS one also... but not now... bank not much money also...
Another day of bball and void deck talk cock session just now... haha...

Lol.... always spent at least one hr blogging... haha...
Going to buy mp3... mayb mp4...
Genting countdown - 2 days
depends the price... got budget...

May everyone has a gd night sleep... Sweet dreamz to all... Me too...

2006-06-01T02:12:00.000+08:00

What are couples? What do you see in couples?

They are pairs of friends of the opposite sex, who have very good relationships. They share their memories, parts and parcels of their daily life With each others. Regardless of what, they will look out for each other and will care for one another.

I have eaten 2 bowls of noodles just now before i turned on my com. I came to my blog and woot... nearly cant digest them... lol...

Alot of things occurred because of certain misunderstandings which arised from misinterpretation... Sometimes, the author may not mean what the reader might have interpreted from what they have written...
There is many angles to look at something before we make a conclusion...

I misread her statement and i rightly deserved to be scolded... Am so sorry... Pai seh
As for what i have written in my previous post, those sentence are just questions in my mind...
Please dont take it to heart...
I have treated her badly in the past... And my turnback is trying to say " I will really treat her with all my heart, really CHERISH her... keeping to the promise i gave on july 2001..."
And i agreed with her... Reality is cruel...
But that doesnt mean its the end of everything... Stand up from we fall and keep walking...
Moreover, I never said i am pitiful... I do not wish anyone to pity me...

There are lots and lots more of pp whose life are far worse than me...(NEWPAPER) for instance the family which met with accident... The wife,pregnant, in intensive care... elder son in hospital as well... younger son dead... Dad has to face all of these overnight, having dreamt of having a great time in Tioman previously... How distraught can it be? I do know the feeling of having everything gone overnight... Hope God bless them...

Its ok even if i cant catch up... You will still be moving on...
There will always be someone trying his best to catch up when you look back on... Regardless the pace...
He will be there to look out for you... He will help you no matter what and whenever you needed one or had a fall... HE WILL BE THERE... always...
He will be very happy even if you would just take a short look at him...
A promise given can never be taken back... Look at life positively... We can live a happier life...

Yesterday went ktv with my bball kaki... For our Tiko gei before he marched on to his "chalet" on Friday... Had a fun time, sang many songs...
Still remembered she was the first to ask me go for my first ever ktv... but i didnt agree to accompany her... Wasnt a thoughtful guy at tt time... never thought of her feeling at tt time...
sigh... How stupid can i be? Zhu dou mei you wo da zhi... sigh
If there could be one more time... i will sing with her till whenever she wants...

Never use com yesterday night... intend to sleep and wake up early in the morning to watch "The Condor Heroes"... but in the end i lie on my bed from 2.30am to 5am not able to sleep... Brain keep thinking of alot of things... then decided to watch Slamdunk... watched for an hr and i tried to sleep again... finally... but unable to wake up later to watch the show...

Woke up then went to take my pay in the afternoon... last day of the valid date for the voucher...
The booth closes at 4.30pm and i reached just before it closes... phew...
Then of course wanted to take a look at her... but she did not work... (am not a peeping tom hor)
kind of disappointed... Wu yuan ma?
Talking abt yuan fen.... i still remembered when i and her just got together... On many occasions... without agreeing in the first place... We will wear the same colour tops when we went out... We also each got one no-fear t-shirt... then will wear together... haha
tts yuan fen ba...

Wcc was at orchard also... then i went to find him... he and a few girls at ktv partyworld singing...
Went back after tt... alone... and rushed to play bball as ycy jio... reached there 830pm... but never really play and went void deck to chat...

Feeling sleepy...
An advice to all guys... cherish the person u love... dun be big bossy guys... Girls are meant to be loved and pampered and not ordered ard... Wan to order, hire one maid...

Humans always never cherish things when they are around... they regret when they are gone... haiz... I am one of them...

2006-05-30T03:26:00.000+08:00

Today will be my 5th entry...

My 6th sense is very accurate... haiz... it really is true... I got condemned...
Zzz.. For nothing which i did wrong... I truly dun understand why... I dunno what to do... She will stop my every move... even a simple call... cant get it why it is like tt...

Not feeling sad or upset... I just dun get it... BU LIAO JIE!!!
Maybe I am a naive person... thoughts are not so complicated ba...
It takes a lot of effort to be able to understand someone... Maybe effort are just something stupid?

Actually there is alot on the mind... but just dunno how to write it out...

Is sincerity important? Or maybe tt some people has just given up on them...
Is it really no turnback for those who has done wrong in the past? Is there really no way out for them? No matter how sincere there are?

Dun think i will get answers on the questions i have... there are still alot in my mind...
Its very difficult living... but thats where we encountered our various happenings in our life... Happiness,sadness and so on...

To her i got so many many to say... but didnt have a single single chance to really express to her... Everyday i will think of her... as and when she will just pass by the brain... kaoz...
free will lo... win liao... not able to stop one...
tts how virus works in computer... lol... joking...

Just wan to say... A chance to really communicate with her will do... Dun treat me so harsh la... i not some ghost or some devil from hell... I am a human with a sincere heart... tu bom tu bom... heard tt? :D
Dun run further away... i am trying to climb to the stage which you are standing now...

ok la... today did the normal things which we usually do... pool... bball... went home...
and using the com as i am doing now... got to use the com onli since just now ard 3.30am... both bros hugging the com...
Recently i am into animations... all of them are Japanese animations... Example Naruto, One piece, Inuyasha and so on... some of them never watch completely... some start halfway or watch halfway onli... Watching these animations, i get alot of inspiration from them...

Be confident in oneself... if not there is nothing worth working hard for...
Be determined in whatever you do...
2 examples of what i learned in watching Naruto...
its nice watching animation...

i downloaded quite a few songs... some songs which i previously downloaded b4 rebooting...
oh ya,want to put up song on this blog... but dunno how... and dunno how to clear the blank on top of my info... hope someone can give some tips...

Recently i dreamt of her, like 3 times liao for the past 2 weeks... different stories in each dream...
dunno tonight will dream of her or not...
later will be going to take pay... 60bucks... heheh...
ok la enough le...

2006-05-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

Stay at home for the whole day today... nothing much abt today...
did some changes for this blog... played some games and watched some tv shows...
kinda boring izzit it?
went ard browsing a few of my friends' blogs... checking out how they have been recently....
so fast this month ending le... time really flies fast...
sianz...
My hair growing long le... come back genting then go cut...
hmmm... still deciding tml or tuesday then go take pay...
oh ya... my watch spoilt le... :(
sianz... like alot of things spoilt recently... dun understand...

ok then... nothing much to write abt... tts abt it today...

2006-05-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

Came back home just now ard 11.20pm... a hectic day outside...

Went to Sentosa today... A place for relaxing...

I, Dingli and Chin Yee went to ICA building in the morning before we met up with the rest at Harbourfront Hawker centre... they need to update their passport for next week's trip to Genting... Suppose to meet at 9am... but me and CY woke up at 9... lol...

By the time we reached Lavender and finished the updating, it was 12.05pm...
a long queue today... we reached harbourfront and we took our meal... i ate 2 plates of food and a big glass of sugar cane juice... was very hungry at tt time...

We went to Siloso beach... played dodge ball, frisby(wrong spelling), soccer, boomerang and sand... have a little cut on my toe on the left foot when playing soccer...
Then there was this moment when our god, Shen Pek , kicked the ball and it got stucked up on the coconut tree... we used quite alot of effort to retrieve the ball... haha... damn funny
He also cannot play boomerang... will hit other pp... haha...

Saw alot of couples relaxing on the beaches and having their own beautiful moments enbouldered into their memories... envy them...
I recalled alot of things in the past with HER while i was sitting alone on the beach... Miss her alot... haiz... The beautiful memories i recalled was so real and yet so far beyond my reach... the feeling of helplessness... I have tried communicating with her... wish to understand her... concern abt her... and of course not interferring in her life...
However, it never works... Am ever hoping tt she could just have a nice chat with me...
Maybe she find me irritating and interfering with her life...
No, i did not... I will give anything tt she wants... regardless of what and with the best of my abilities...
I know LOVE is a very complicated matter... its abt the feeling of a person... and so i respect whatever she wants... i wan to try once more to let her trust me again... She knows my character... am i tt bad a person? And if i really fail, i would accept it... however reality always opposes wishful thoughts...
Acceptance and compromise is needed in a relationship... Communication is very important in building and sustaining the good relationship...
haiz... I have thought of alot and alot...
She is main character... she calls all the decision...
Most important thing is she is happy doing whatever thing...
got the feeling she condemned me... haiz...

Bomb and LCG went back early... ard 4 plus and we stay till ard 9... and went for dinner then took 963 straight back to Woodlands...

Next week booking is full... great i cant work... No income for next week... I got alot of things to buy leh...
My BIG REVOLUTION is on going man...
Look to the sky and grab your dreams... Work towards it...
Never dying Phoenix revive everyday... Never-dying spirit...

2006-05-27T02:37:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 27th of May Year 2006

How do u differentiate right from wrong?
Everybody has their own definition of right from wrong in their mind... However, sometimes u wont know tt u are doing the wrong things when u mind thought tt u are doing it the correct way... problem is when u noe u have done something wrong, do u repent? do u think abt it and learn from the lesson? Life is learning lesson,which i put in my msn nick... learn and grow from the wrongs and do not make the same stupid mistakes again...

Above are part of the things which i enlightened myself from the past... things which i did wrong... and the mindset of a guy whom now has grown mature enough to think before doing something... dun make another grave mistake which will err my own life...

Sold my bike... kiss goodbye to my companion and hope he serve his new master well... and hopefully his new master treats him well...
One thing off my mind... one less thing, one less trouble on my mind... my parents are relief that i did sell it...

Today i feel quite lethargic... have the feeling of dozing off... went out at early noon to settle the matter on the bike... came home and took a nap... and went out in the evening to meet my friends (zhu peng gou you)... haha
We went to Choa Chu Kang(cck) to play pool after having a short session of meal and cock-talking...
Saw Dingli new MP3 player(512MB $149)... Great, i have succumbed to temptations and now i wan to buy one too... LCG told me IT roadshow coming at suntec... OMG... need to splash out money again... Pocket going to empty again... Have to work harder for money...

I am going earn big bucks next time... as what alot of pp wish to also...
I am going let myself, my future wife and my family(parents included) have a gd life next time...
Friends wont be forgotten... haha...
If i open company, 10k for daven to be chaffeur... wahahaha...

Went to see Yuan's, Des's and LCG's blogs... and of course someone's else too... yuan blog funny... he is now officially a member of Woodlands new party... The rise of a new era, The AGPs, the gathering of the Gods... Yuan will be the illustrator the party... depicting the activites of the party and the job of each of the party members... Lord the the gods ( Shen pao), master of all beasts... whahaha...

Later will be going to Lavender with our Drug Master, Dingli, to renew his passport before heading for sentosa...
So next entry will be here soon...

2006-05-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

so long never blog le... last time got blog for abt a month like tt... haha...
got so many things in my mind to bother abt... haiz... life sux isnt it...
trying my best to brighten it up again... to light it up with many colours... a world worth living...
will be embarking on my journey of Botakness on 6th of Oct... still far isnt it...
but in fact it wont be... time flies past in a just a twink of our eyes... so fast i have graduated from SP... and many things have happened in my life...
i am already 20 liao... next moment it will 22 when i ORD... time waits for no one... make full use of our lives when we still can... cherish ur loved ones...
tml will be selling my bike of 1 yr 4 months... a heavy loss of 1.3k...
but at least one thing off my mind liao... less one thing to bother abt...
next week going to genting... singapore sale is coming... need alot of money... $$$... have to work... have to be very hardworking...
my contact lense spoilt le... zzz... onli use for abt 10 or 11 days... sianz 1/2... have to buy again...
however all these wont be as impt as the main thing i wan to bother abt... haiz...
The main character in my story... the Zhu jiao of my life...
everyday is a brand new day... be happy!!!!